Daily Archives: Monday, July 19, 2010
Nineteen… is a common number as of late for me.. well only common twice as of late. Today is July 19, 4 months to the day since my Lymphoma Cancer diagnosis. I will always remember this date as well as the time I was told. It still surprises me how at times I am reminded that I have cancer. I mean.. its always on my mind and it is a part of my life now but I still get a bit of reality from time to time. Just realizing that I have cancer, kind of like from the outside looking in. In fact as I type this I can feel numbness and tingling in my fingertips.. side effects from the chemo meds.. a reminder of what is going on. Still.. I’m not angry or wishing it upon someone else. It just is and I’m learning to live with it and all that it has taught me.
This Saturday is my daughter Hayley’s birthday, she will be 19. Both important numbers for me this week.. one being a major change in my life that is not normally looked at as being positive but I have tried to turn it into a life change and not let it drag me down..too much. Of course the second 19 being the age my daughter is turning..this number being nothing but positive and bringing much happiness and joy into my life.
Seeing as how this post has taken me since last night to write I’m going to end it here.. there is more I would like to say but due to chemo brain (see previous post) can’t quite get it out of my noggin also this tingling in my fingertips is annoying whilst tapping on the keys especially because I keep missing the keys I want.
Just felt the need to observe the number 19.
Hope the weekend went well for all of you.. until next time.
~ peace ~