Good morning.. and what a nice morning it is.. it has finally cooled off and the sunrise and dawn were a welcome sight to see along with the cooler, less heavy air. Although as I write this the clouds are coming in.. which is good.. the gardens will love some rain to quench their dry soil.
This week has been a pretty trying week in many ways but at the same time also has been a very good week with people still continuing to show their love and support. It still amaze me how much people are giving.. and I’m not talking just money.
I had my first infection this week for which I am being treated for now. I started feeling pretty crappy this past weekend and it lasted for a few days.. while normally I wouldn’t care I decided to give my oncologist a call. They wanted me to come in on Tuesday and sure enough my counts were low and my immune system a bit compromised. I started having sx’s of possibly getting bronchitis and since I have asthma they said that is already a weak spot and just treated me to be safe. Also.. they again told me I wasn’t taking enough pain meds.. I’ve been having quite a bit of pain as well.. more so then I have in a long time but have been hesitant to take much on the way of pain meds.. although now I am seeing that I really need to bump it up a bit.. my body is wearing down from dealing with the hurting even though my brain thinks I can take it my body is growing tired of it.. again.. seems as if the cancer fight isn’t the only battle going on.. my mind and body are also at odds.. sometimes I don’t know who to listen to.. my heart tends to try to get involved but of course it’s emotional and sometimes muddies the water between those two. Looks like I just need to listen to my body more.
Overall.. I still wake up grateful and looking forward to seeing what the day will bring… I am finding that there is a always something beautiful that fills me with awe and gratitude, even on the bad days..it’s always there, those little gifts. Sometimes you just have to take away all the trappings of the wrappings and it will be there.. even if it appears to be small.. it’s just as powerful. Don’t under estimate the significance… it’s all right there for us to see and if our hearts and minds are open.. it’s there for us to feel.
~ peace ~
You are an amazing strong woman but even the strong need to listen to their bodies and take help, even in the way of pain meds sometimes
XOXO! I hope you start to regain some energy soon and feel a lil better. Miss you already; wish I could give you a huge hug! Love you lots, think and pray for you everyday<3
Jennell
We have said it before, and will say it again. It is vital to stay ahead of the pain. Before, you didn’t want to take too much Vicodin because you were going to work. Not an excuse now. As you take Vicodin for a period of time, you become more acclimated to it and can function appropriately.
Take the Vicodin regularly to keep pain at bay so you can heal.
Listen to YOM.
love.
So sorry to hear you’re not feeling well, hard enough dealing w/ chemo side effects and then to have respiratory issues too…take the pain meds, don’t let yourself get too run down, listen to your body! oh, and the doctor! ~hugs*prayers~ Melva